When The Heart Leadssam
by Natalie Fee
A year and a half ago, in a field in East Sussex, I saw a man standing in meadow, up to his knees in wildflowers and in the middle of what looked like a dynamic energy practice. I watched him for a while, rhythmically moving his arms, co-ordinating movement with his breath, and I knew I had to find out what he was doing.
I approached him after he’d finished. We started talking and he began to tell me about the exercise he’d been doing. It was called ‘Falling Lightning’, and was just one of a number of practices he’d learnt on a course called the Energy Awareness Training. He went on to explain that when practised facing a particular direction, Falling Lightning would bring more energy into an area of his life. I was already a bit lost at this point, so happily he agreed to tell me more. So we sat in the meadow, with the sun shining high, and carried on our conversation.
He pulled out a pen and paper from his bag and drew an 8-pointed star. On each point he wrote a compass direction, and then for each direction wrote a corresponding energy. East was health, West was creativity, North was work & career and so on. He continued to explain that we all receive these eight energies, or ‘Life Ki’s’ from the specific directions, and how much of the energy we receive depends on the energies within us. By practicing falling Lightning, he was beckoning more of a particular energy into his life.
This was a complete revelation to me. I had no idea these life energies existed as something flowing from somewhere, and not only did they exist, but they could be harnessed and used! I’d heard before that feng shui used the directions in the home to improve certain areas of the homeowners life, but never before heard someone explain how that could be possible.
Inside I was jumping up and down with excitement, and I knew that a new way of experiencing the world was about to dawn. I’d been shown a door, and I couldn’t wait to open it. I persuaded him to teach me the practice – on the condition that I’d call the people who ran the Energy Awareness Training within the next few weeks. I agreed.
Weeks passed, and each morning that summer I practiced Falling Lightning. I forgot my agreement to call about the training.
That September, I went on a workshop in London, which promised a new way of healing long-standing health issues. On the first morning, at registration, I met a beautiful elderly lady with long flowing grey hair. To say we hit it off is an understatement. Rather conveniently we were asked to pair up for the day’s programme, so we spent the rest of the day together.
Over lunch together, I noticed her doing something strange. When I asked if she needed me to get her bag from the cloakroom, she looked over at the queue, did something with her hand, paused briefly, and then said “No thanks!”. I asked her what an earth she had done! She explained that she’d used an energetic test, to see if she needed anything from the cloakroom. And she didn’t! Once again, my curiosity exploded and I asked her to tell me more. All she was doing, she went on to say, was tuning into her energy to see if it went up or down when making a decision. She continued to explain that every choice we make, be it what to eat, who to see, where to go – has an effect on our energy. It will either make our energy go up (ascend) or make it go down (descend). She went on to demonstrate with the miniature feast we had spread before us on the table. Forming a hand position (which from my yoga training I recognised as a mudra) while looking at the different foods, she turned to me and said “yes to bread, olives and humous, no to the sprouts”. I felt the same excitement in me that I’d felt in the meadow some months before.
Here was someone showing me that there was a way to actually experience how my energy responds to something I’m about to do. I expressed my enthusiasm over her developed sense of awareness. I thought she must be ‘one of those people’ who are naturally able to sense and perceive energies. At that time, I was always wanting to make the ‘right’ decision but forever getting lost in my head in the process (some might say I was indecisive!). So naturally I was delighted to watch her make a choice based on her energy, and not on what she was thinking! That was a gift I wished I had. I told her how much I’d love to be able to do what she just did. “Well you can learn it darling!” she replied. “It’s this wonderful man in the Pyrenees, he comes over to the UK and gives the most amazing trainings. I’m in my seventies, and have been into these things for over 40 years, been on more workshops than I can remember, and he’s the best I’ve seen.”
Suddenly it dawned on me that I was hearing about the very same man I’d heard about in the meadow! I couldn’t believe I was hearing about him again! I told her about my experience early that summer, and asked her if the trainings included a practice called Falling Lightning. With a huge smile on her face she said “Yes! There you go. You’ve heard it twice – now take the training!”.
Needless to say, the very next week, I called Stephen Kane, and booked myself onto the next Energy Awareness Training (EAT).
As I sit here at my desk, eighteen months on from my first EAT, I feel different. It’s been a subtle transformation, nothing radical has happened, yet I feel radically different. For over a year I’ve been making decisions based on my energetic needs instead of my wants. This hasn’t been easy to do. And I’ve battled time and time again over whether testing what to drink actually makes any difference. But it does, and the more I live being guided by my spirit instead of my head, the more I see the effect of my choices on my energy. For years whenever people told me to ‘follow my heart’ it only served to fuel my internal longing to know exactly how one does that! I guess it was that longing that finally lead me to the EAT.
Learning to ‘test’ my energetic response to a decision is one of the things I learnt on the training. The more ascending choices I make, the more energy I have, and the brighter my life becomes. So even the smallest of decisions (like testing what colour top to wear this morning) can increase my awareness energy. A wonderful thing about making decisions based on my energetic needs is that it’s full of suprises. Once I was testing whether to go to see a movie with some friends. I’d been wanting to go for ages, and when I got a ‘no’ to going, I was annoyed. I decided to trust my test and stay at home. Low and behold, an hour later, I got a call from an old friend who was in the area, and who desperately needed help and somewhere to stay the night. I was delighted to hear from her, as I was living in deepest darkest Wales at the time. Had I gone to the cinema, I would have been unable to help her.
There’s a lot more to energy awareness than testing my actions. Each day (almost!) I go for a Power Walk. This technique, also taught on the EAT, is a great way of releasing certain restrictive energies from my past. I can Power Walk to leave past sorrow behind, or anger, or past loves… to mention just some. And the lighter the load of the past becomes, the more energy I have to be in the present.
Now movies and nappies may all seem like pretty minor events, but I’ve also had to make some big decisions using my energy awareness. Choices that I wouldn’t have had the energy, or awareness to make had I not been practicing living with intent – following my heart instead of my head.
The small stuff counts as much as the big stuff. Each ascending choice that we make has a positive impact on our future. And these choices generate an accumulation of energy that gives us the strength to face and transform our karmas into higher awareness.
Its not a matter of worrying whether or not I’ve made the right decision, its about learning to recognise what it is that I need to do now. I feel like I’m only just beginning to truly see the alchemy in each moment. Doing only what I need to do from moment to moment turns my karmas into higher awareness, my lead into gold. The more I practice this way of living with intent, or living with the Spirit in my life, the more I glimpse another world – a “magical” world of spirit – that is always here to be discovered, but without sufficient energy, is almost never seen…
Natalie Fee is a freelance journalist and offers energy-aware life readings in Glastonbury. She is also a director of Weaving Star, creators of the world’s first range of EnergyWear™ – clothing and accessories designed and guaranteed to increase your health, energy and awareness. Visit the website at www.weavingstar.com
Natalie is available for personal energy readings and Vision Feng Shui – a unique form of feng shui based on actual perception of environmental energies. For more information about the Energy Awareness Training, contact Natalie on +44 (0)1458 831116 / +44(0)20 8144 0694 (Mon-Fri 8am-6pm), or email firstname.lastname@example.org
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